We are dancing in the hallow of nothingness. We are one flesh, but seperated like stars.
She was illusive. She was today. She was tomorrow. She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower; the flitting shadow of an elf owl. We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a cork board like a butterfly, but the pin merely went through and away she flew.
As internet culture has grown, we’ve come to romanticize certain kinds of unmeditated, old-fashioned “human” interactions. But this fantasy ignores how much of normal social interaction is fleeting, bite-sized, instant, tweetlike. Humans have always talked to each other via a kind of analog Twitter. These new technologies just get us there with maximum efficiency. Meeting a new person is thrilling, in a primal way- your attention focuses completely, if only for a nanosecond, to see if the creature in front of you has the power to change your life for better or worse. ChatRoulette creates this moment over and over again; it privileges it over actual conversation. Eventually, I realized that clicking “next” was not so much a rejection as it was pure curiosity, like riding a train past an apartment building at night, looking briefly into as many lit windows as possible.
The Laughing Heart: Charles Bukowski